So what has changed? I can broadly attribute my change in well being to a number of factors:
- Sunshine- spring has arrived, daffodils are in bloom, days are longer....but that happens every year (ok maybe not so much last year ;-))
- Finding fulfilment in my job, at last. After a succession of roles where I was a perfectly capable, yet totally mojo-less round peg in a square hole and a job share which in theory should have been great but in practice left me emotionally and physically drained (despite the very best efforts of both of us to make it work I should add), I'm now feeling motivated, driven and inspired by my employment. That's a revelation.
- Taking time out to persue a talent and a skill that I love- and that is where the RSN comes in. The added bonus is getting to go to Hampton Court Palace and spend time in such wonderful, uplifting surroundings- that's such a privilege.
- Family life being calmer, and more settled. This time last year we cancelled Mother's Day things were so bad. Tomorrow I'm looking forward to spending time with my children. That's fantastic.
So to everyone that has known that there's been something wrong and tried to help, thank you from the bottom of my heart for putting up with me. To everyone that didn't realise there was anything wrong and just accepted me for who I was, thank you for treating me like a friend. But to all those who told me to get a grip, cheer up, stop being so selfish, that I'm not the only one in the world that is fed up etc etc. I have to say I'm sorry, but you were part of the problem, not part of the solution. There as nothing more that I would have loved to do than find this emotion, this feeling, this lightness that I now feel. I hope this feeling lasts. I have a lot to look forward to. I think it will.
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